reach out and touch one's self

Spirituality is an active noun. That's what I'm remembering. I can not be passive and still reap the benefits of spirituality. I must actively endeavor toward spiritual things. I must persist.

That is not always something I feel like doing. The appeal of going to church once or twice a week and reading someone else's ideas about God and life is great at times. I suppose, in those moments, the force is weak within me.

For the last couple of weeks, I've been erecting a makeshift altar on my bedroom floor, lighting a candle and arranging some rocks on it, and thinking. Maybe it's more meditation than thought, but it starts out with thinking. I sit and I ask someone (anyone) to help me understand whatever it is that I need to understand. And, it works. I gain clarity and calm.

But, I can't say that it's someone else talking to me. No. What I've come to fully comprehend is that the goddess in me is fully active in my psyche, as long as I talk to her. And, she knows everything. And, she's willing to share that knowledge. I just have to ask.

In order to ask, one must be active, not passive.

This is what I need to remember.